Sunday - the day to try to get a hold of all the things that you have lost track of, that ran away, or simply fell off completely.
The conference is over and it was good. I did have a "well-shit" moment. Friday night, it is a tradition that a large group of directors go to a local german restaurant for dinner. I chose to go with a smaller contigent, but it was still very enjoyable. We pregamed at a brewery - it's super cool, it a multi-vendored brewery/ eatery that is housed in a renovated/ repurposed elementary school. Anyway, I shared a beer with my friend as it was the advanced hour of 7pm and I was already tired. And, most importantly, I had a friend willing to share!!
Our small party of four headed to dinner. When we arrived at the restaurant, ventured downstairs in the restaurant and said hello to all the people. I rejoined my party and ate 1/2 the meal ( saving me from grocery shopping this week) and throroughly enjoyed the company.
I asked another friend if they were coming (didn't see them) and they said plans had changed and were having drinks at the conference resort bar. I decided to pop in there after dinner. It was crowded as hell, loud, and full of faces that were 10-20 years my junior and many I didn't know. I did a lap, made the small talk, and decided to get the hell out of dodge. It was not a scene I wanted to be a part of that night... and that was a little bit of a sad first. In years past, I was able to sit at the bar or at a table and have nice ( though still loud) conversation with people I liked and respected. This year, I just didn't see these people (many just weren't there and/or have retired) and I didn't want to work that hard. It was a little surreal. It wasn't bad per se, just... different. And my friend and their associates were not there, so, that just added to the mix.
I have always wanted to go to a club in Vegas. Now, I wonder if I really want to....... I don't know. Maybe the right mood, right clothes, a little alcohol and an emergency exit plan still make that viable. Hmmmmm...... TBD
Today is chores. Got to have brunch with a really cool former band parent, did some small grocery shopping and saw a former colleague who is now handling a business fusion of womens' health, a B&B and a small meeting place/ convention center. This was fortuitous as I have been meaning to get on handling this stage of life with a little more structure. Hormones are a bitch. We connected and she is going to help with that.
Highest accomplishment today - I jumped my own battery. Yes, it was not really that hard, but, I had never done it myself before and was worried I would explode the battery.. or the car. But, I did it. And yes, I asked for help from someone who wasn't available first ;-).
Thoughts from today: 1.There are others redinfing their role in life - aka-somebody's mom or somebody's wife to simply somebody. It's good to hear about other's journies. 2. May need to fight with myself on the idea of dating. It 'might' be worth it. ( but, perhaps that's just easy for someone who's paired up to say)I may write about that internal argument sometime. 3.There's nothing wrong with only reading books on recommendation only ;-). 4. And a star thought today - learn the difference between balance and baggage - one keeps you grounded and one holds you back.
Back to laundry and meal prep.... and probably a nap. Here's to launching February!!
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