Random thoughts

Random thoughts are what make up a great part of life aren't they???

#1 - I miss my boy. Sometimes I think about when he is a grown man and I have a 'small' worry but more accurately more compassion again for parents. If they like their children ( mind you) I bet they miss them when they are far away... even in their 20's and 30's. And it must be nice when they become closer in proximity again.

#2 - I really don't like living alone. I actually already knew this, but have seen others do it successfully and thought I should be able to as well. Well, I "can" do it..... I just really don't like to. In talking to a friend yesterday, i was able to admit that one of the hardest things when I was married was living with someone but still feeling alone. We couldn't watch TV together, never wanted to do anything together, didn't assist one another with menial chores, etc. while violating the just roommate philosophy by... well, being married. That sucked too.

But I think I would rather have a roommate or something. Someone to talk to when both parties might be willing, someone to avoid when you want to be by yourself but know that they are there, someone to cajole when you want company, or someone to sit in silence with when reading a book or watching TV. Gerbils, eh... not so personable and certainly not quality time worthy. You're too busy corralling them

#3 - I am allergic to my office at school. Maybe psychosematicly (sp) but definitely physically. I went yesterday and sneezed for like a half hour - 45 minutes straight. Not pretty. Carol and I are vacuuming and carpet cleaning and dusting today. Yes, folks, custodians do do that sort of thing, but in this particular case, you'd have to see it to understand and only those who have to enter or who I really trust can see my office area :-).

#4 - 2 new goals. a) Somehow, someway, I am going to attempt to become more technologically savvy. If I die, I wish you all well.
b) LEAVE THE COUNTRY!!! With people whom I know having had the reason, chance, and resources to travel the globe, I am looking to see if I can. It has always been a dream, but life needs and other things have always trumped at least the ability to compile the monetary resources needed to go. But I am getting older, and although hard to come by, money is regain able, health is not, so I have begun research here. We'll see where research, health, time, money, and life lead.

#5 -Gotta run. I'm already late :-)