As I just recessed from that last "thing" - we'll see if I actually finish it - I think about the dictum "Simplify, simplify, simplify". Why is that so "complicated, complicated,complicated"
As I stop to hear the news, they are talking about relationships and passion. Geesh.
Here's one "She/he's is just not that into you". Truth hurts... but thought hurts too :-).
I'm not angry ( at least I don't think I am. I'm just.... seeking.... honesty maybe?)
When you break up with someone, don't go for nice. Go with things like, "Yeah, you're just too ugly for me" or "You look great. It's your personality that sucks" or "I was just with you for the sex. I've got something better now, so thanks, but see ya" I'm not angry here I swear... just thinking of ways to make the end of relationships easier.
I remember a time in college that this guy liked me but I didn't return the same feelings. He bucked up and said something (I really admire him for that) I told him that I really did like him, but not in a romantic sort of way. I could see he was hurt, but all was good in the end. And we were good.... at least I thought so. I remember a situation in college going the other way too. I told him I was interested and the fellow just shut down and it took like 3 months to get back to a semblance of normalcy. I spoke to his friends more than I spoke to him. But it worked. I had no interest in him about a week later. I was over it and he was wierd. In the end of that, I was more amused than distressed.
Why do we make it so hard?? Just say how you feel !!!!
Beginnings are often kinda fun. Ends stink.
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Relationships - part x
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My head hurts so much from thinking about this topic lately, that I almost (mind I say almost) can't wait for school to begin again to distract me from it. ( Although what is school, but one big arena of varying relationships).
I'm not sure what I'm going to write, or in what order, but perhaps writing will do one of the following:
a) help organize my own thoughts
b) ask others to sound out in contrasting thought or in in agreement.
c) let me see what I thought in 2008/beginning 2009 when it is 2020 (and I am 44 - ugh)
These 'buzz' words keep dancing in my head: change, acceptance, compromise, desires/wants, needs, truth, convenience, fear, availability, closure, responsibility, honesty,why. There may be more, so I'll alter as needed.
Some folks believe that such discussions and feelings about such things should be kept close to the vest. Well, for me personally, I might as well be a flasher when it comes to this, so if it gets too much, cover your eyes and close the window.
As I begin this entry, I see that it is going to be an extensive project, so as I have other things to do today ( and the rest of my life) I'll try to get the outline done. Feel free to interject to this, even in it's creation stage. And it's rough, I assure you.....
I) Acceptance
A) The need to be accepted or loved - universal or individual?
B) Personal - self
1) innate traits
2) self expectation
3) social expectation
4) experience molded thought
5) external rules and guidelines
a) family
b) culture
c) religion
6) Conditional vs unconditional
C) Social - others
1) personal expectation of others
2) social schemas - I'm not sure what to do here yet - organized factions - religious, popular, geek/nerd, goth/dark/people in black, pretentious, or types within recluse/sterile, socialite, workaholic, social climber
3) Conditional vs unconditional
II) Change
A) Inevitable vs controlled
B) Progressive or retrograde motion
C) Self expection vs social expectation of causation
D) Needed or wanted vs forced
1)Control/forced vs compromise
E) Coping with
1) confrontation
2) escape-avoidance-denial
3) transference - displacement - projection
4) Overintellectualization - Hmmmmmmm.( dealing with problems as interesting events that can be explained rationally and that have no anxiety or emotional content attached to them)
III) Relationships
A) Personal
1) Family
2) Friendship
3) Significant other
B) Social
1) Acquaintance
2) Co worker
3) Societal roles
Ok. Done for now - needs more thought. This is my analytical side as you can see. I can feel an emotional response brewing which may come later.
My head hurts so much from thinking about this topic lately, that I almost (mind I say almost) can't wait for school to begin again to distract me from it. ( Although what is school, but one big arena of varying relationships).
I'm not sure what I'm going to write, or in what order, but perhaps writing will do one of the following:
a) help organize my own thoughts
b) ask others to sound out in contrasting thought or in in agreement.
c) let me see what I thought in 2008/beginning 2009 when it is 2020 (and I am 44 - ugh)
These 'buzz' words keep dancing in my head: change, acceptance, compromise, desires/wants, needs, truth, convenience, fear, availability, closure, responsibility, honesty,why. There may be more, so I'll alter as needed.
Some folks believe that such discussions and feelings about such things should be kept close to the vest. Well, for me personally, I might as well be a flasher when it comes to this, so if it gets too much, cover your eyes and close the window.
As I begin this entry, I see that it is going to be an extensive project, so as I have other things to do today ( and the rest of my life) I'll try to get the outline done. Feel free to interject to this, even in it's creation stage. And it's rough, I assure you.....
I) Acceptance
A) The need to be accepted or loved - universal or individual?
B) Personal - self
1) innate traits
2) self expectation
3) social expectation
4) experience molded thought
5) external rules and guidelines
a) family
b) culture
c) religion
6) Conditional vs unconditional
C) Social - others
1) personal expectation of others
2) social schemas - I'm not sure what to do here yet - organized factions - religious, popular, geek/nerd, goth/dark/people in black, pretentious, or types within recluse/sterile, socialite, workaholic, social climber
3) Conditional vs unconditional
II) Change
A) Inevitable vs controlled
B) Progressive or retrograde motion
C) Self expection vs social expectation of causation
D) Needed or wanted vs forced
1)Control/forced vs compromise
E) Coping with
1) confrontation
2) escape-avoidance-denial
3) transference - displacement - projection
4) Overintellectualization - Hmmmmmmm.( dealing with problems as interesting events that can be explained rationally and that have no anxiety or emotional content attached to them)
III) Relationships
A) Personal
1) Family
2) Friendship
3) Significant other
B) Social
1) Acquaintance
2) Co worker
3) Societal roles
Ok. Done for now - needs more thought. This is my analytical side as you can see. I can feel an emotional response brewing which may come later.
Sunday, December 28, 2008
The worlds of endless thought
Ok, Maybe not the most appropriate title for this entry but the best I could do at the moment.
I feel like I have so much to express, but am not happy with the incompleteness of the ideas or maybe just their potential fallibility. Dunno.
Part of this I feel goes back to my partial remembrance of a discussion had concerning relationships and sacrifice. I sometimes think so much in this arena, I fear that someday I may never want to explore a "deep" co-ed relationship because I burnt all my energy analyzing the simple institution. Other times, I simply conceed that maybe I'm too busy to worry with it anyway. And then, there are the times I realize how much I really want one. Insatiable, another personal issue to handle at some point, or find a person accepting of such a trait.... although at times even I find it hard to be.
I want to go back to that discussion with a more rational mind and listen more than talk - regardless of how much I agree or disagree at the time. I really want to hear a/the male perspective on such things as I live with a woman's one.
Although, I myself am not a huge fan of confrontation, I like when people aren't afraid to defend their own thoughts in a polite, but direct fashion. And I appreciate when others are able to translate. Again, why I wish I remembered this conversation better. Damn it :-(
But, after spending some time with my sister, we have discussed a few things, one being the idea of sacrifice in a relationship. I think we agree so much because we come from the same environment. We also explored the meaning of "You can't go home again". To this we concluded ( abbreviated version) that of course you can go home, but home will never look exactly the way it does in your memory. Sometimes, that's not such a bad thing... other times, it's simply a pisser.
Another idea, while watching "Sound of Music" ( boy, was Christopher Plummer a good looking man!!!!)is one I'll take with me. The character Maria says "I'm sorry. I'm far too outspoken. It's one of my worst faults" True that sista !!! I need to make that into a t-shirt :-)
Ok, that's what I have so far.
Too much to figure out in a day, maybe even in a lifetime. I guess this is why we have TV, blogs, and after Christmas sales at Eddie Bauer. Damn you Eddie, but I love the jeans ;-) !!!!!
I feel like I have so much to express, but am not happy with the incompleteness of the ideas or maybe just their potential fallibility. Dunno.
Part of this I feel goes back to my partial remembrance of a discussion had concerning relationships and sacrifice. I sometimes think so much in this arena, I fear that someday I may never want to explore a "deep" co-ed relationship because I burnt all my energy analyzing the simple institution. Other times, I simply conceed that maybe I'm too busy to worry with it anyway. And then, there are the times I realize how much I really want one. Insatiable, another personal issue to handle at some point, or find a person accepting of such a trait.... although at times even I find it hard to be.
I want to go back to that discussion with a more rational mind and listen more than talk - regardless of how much I agree or disagree at the time. I really want to hear a/the male perspective on such things as I live with a woman's one.
Although, I myself am not a huge fan of confrontation, I like when people aren't afraid to defend their own thoughts in a polite, but direct fashion. And I appreciate when others are able to translate. Again, why I wish I remembered this conversation better. Damn it :-(
But, after spending some time with my sister, we have discussed a few things, one being the idea of sacrifice in a relationship. I think we agree so much because we come from the same environment. We also explored the meaning of "You can't go home again". To this we concluded ( abbreviated version) that of course you can go home, but home will never look exactly the way it does in your memory. Sometimes, that's not such a bad thing... other times, it's simply a pisser.
Another idea, while watching "Sound of Music" ( boy, was Christopher Plummer a good looking man!!!!)is one I'll take with me. The character Maria says "I'm sorry. I'm far too outspoken. It's one of my worst faults" True that sista !!! I need to make that into a t-shirt :-)
Ok, that's what I have so far.
Too much to figure out in a day, maybe even in a lifetime. I guess this is why we have TV, blogs, and after Christmas sales at Eddie Bauer. Damn you Eddie, but I love the jeans ;-) !!!!!
Sunday, December 14, 2008
What a week !!!
This past week had been a ride of a lifetime. In fact, I am thinking this year may qualify for the same title.
But, for this week, I closed on a home ( I am very happy about this) I bought my leased car,and talked to more financiers, title companies, car people, banks, etc, etc, etc. than ever in my 32 years prior. It was exhausting for sure, but here's hoping it was all worth it.
So the next 2 weeks hold and expedited moving process while finishing my last work week in Dec. Some of my students and their families have even offered to help, which is so moving itself. Also, I must finish all the Christmas shopping and pack for my little trip back east. Another survival week.
Lessons learned - the Wal-mart near us takes good pictures, but the stress wasn't worth it. Going back to that expensive place in the mall next year. Wal-mart - the photo meatmarket.
When an older child believes in Santa, things can get expensive. On BF, he an I went looking for a flat screen TV ( hey, it looks better in the condo ;-) ) Anyway, everyone was sold out of the one listed for the $$ I wanted to pay. Disappointed, Christian goes, "Mommy, just ask Santa for one. If you really want it, he'll bring it" Uh-oh. So, my online search began. I found one for the price I wanted after some very diligent looking. The plan was for this to be delivered to the apartment office and I would pick it up on a day he was with his dad and take and hide it in the condo. Well, they delivered it one evening when we both were here. Ugh !!!! So I told Christian he smelled and that he needed to go to the bathroom ( there's some psych treatment I'll be paying for later) When he was in the bathroom, I speedily pushed the TV box through the hall and badly covered it with blankets and stuff to conceal it. When little C asked me who was at the door, I said it was a newspaper salesman. ( great, another lie for the magic of Santa). But.. so far so good. The plan, my sister and friends will set up the TV while Christian and I are in MD and then the TV will be on the mantle with a bow on it from Santa when we return. I just couldn't break the news this year. Not with everything going on in our lives. Besides, isn't that his peers job? :-)
I'm actually happy he still believes in Santa. It really does keep a part of the childish wonder of Christmas alive.
Now, I'l just try to get through this week................ and keep the TV hidden. ;-)
But, for this week, I closed on a home ( I am very happy about this) I bought my leased car,and talked to more financiers, title companies, car people, banks, etc, etc, etc. than ever in my 32 years prior. It was exhausting for sure, but here's hoping it was all worth it.
So the next 2 weeks hold and expedited moving process while finishing my last work week in Dec. Some of my students and their families have even offered to help, which is so moving itself. Also, I must finish all the Christmas shopping and pack for my little trip back east. Another survival week.
Lessons learned - the Wal-mart near us takes good pictures, but the stress wasn't worth it. Going back to that expensive place in the mall next year. Wal-mart - the photo meatmarket.
When an older child believes in Santa, things can get expensive. On BF, he an I went looking for a flat screen TV ( hey, it looks better in the condo ;-) ) Anyway, everyone was sold out of the one listed for the $$ I wanted to pay. Disappointed, Christian goes, "Mommy, just ask Santa for one. If you really want it, he'll bring it" Uh-oh. So, my online search began. I found one for the price I wanted after some very diligent looking. The plan was for this to be delivered to the apartment office and I would pick it up on a day he was with his dad and take and hide it in the condo. Well, they delivered it one evening when we both were here. Ugh !!!! So I told Christian he smelled and that he needed to go to the bathroom ( there's some psych treatment I'll be paying for later) When he was in the bathroom, I speedily pushed the TV box through the hall and badly covered it with blankets and stuff to conceal it. When little C asked me who was at the door, I said it was a newspaper salesman. ( great, another lie for the magic of Santa). But.. so far so good. The plan, my sister and friends will set up the TV while Christian and I are in MD and then the TV will be on the mantle with a bow on it from Santa when we return. I just couldn't break the news this year. Not with everything going on in our lives. Besides, isn't that his peers job? :-)
I'm actually happy he still believes in Santa. It really does keep a part of the childish wonder of Christmas alive.
Now, I'l just try to get through this week................ and keep the TV hidden. ;-)
Sunday, December 07, 2008
Tis the season to be ill
Sing this to jingle bells - beginning w/ the strain dashing through the snow
Dashing for the john
In a real swift running way,
For the puke will dawn
Has come 3 times today
Losing fliud fast
Don't want to eat at all
I'm just really hoping now
I don't puke in the hall
Oh
It's the flu, it'd the flu
It's really full of strife
I hope I feel much better soon
For this is ruining my life.
Blaugh!!!
Gotta go.... really.
Dashing for the john
In a real swift running way,
For the puke will dawn
Has come 3 times today
Losing fliud fast
Don't want to eat at all
I'm just really hoping now
I don't puke in the hall
Oh
It's the flu, it'd the flu
It's really full of strife
I hope I feel much better soon
For this is ruining my life.
Blaugh!!!
Gotta go.... really.
Wednesday, November 26, 2008
Abbreviated Update
Haven't been here in a while,so here's what happening in this neck of the woods:
School - Crazy fall bad season. A total of 5 performances ( with four different programs) in 4 months ( this is for high schoolers mind you). And the grand debate of "march or not to march". I'm not sure who I was trying to kill, the kids or me.
Musical - Yup, did that too, but my role in that was much less this year than in past years. Easier show, lighter rehearsal schedule. We performed "The Music Man" . During the run, there was conflict with the kids, conflict with the new theater director, conflict with the accompanists - good thing was not much if any of this drama involved me personally - I just was the vent lady. I guess that's why they call in "drama"
Playing - Still doing the chamber orchestra 2 concerts this fall ( love that group) and the Pueblo symphony.... although for the fall season I was able to make 1 of the 4 concerts due to school and other conflicts. Hmmm. I'm hoping I still have that gig in the spring.
Divorce - Fine'. All went well.... relatively. The first time round we agreed to do it ourselves ( the legal part). Didn't go so good. So, he hired a mediator for the 2 of us which was actually a lawyer for him. It's a bad sign when the judge says, "Are you _sure_ you want to proceed without your own legal counsel?" So, I'm certainly not going to write a book entitiled, "Take him for all he's worth" but I also won't be writing one called "+15000 in settlement, -20000 in legal fees" The short of it, I got screwed a little. But, he's dating now - a woman with 2 kids of her own. They met via eHarmony. I'm just hoping he put there what he told me- "Question - Expectations for a spousal relationship. Answer - A hot meal on the table and sex 2x a week." Maybe she likes that description. Anyway, in the depths of my mind, I hope they marry and then she divorces him and takes him for all he's worth. Then, I'd just live vicariously. Yeah, I'm a little bitter, but this too shall pass.
Home ownership - Well, it's looks as if I might be a homeowner soon. It's been a tap dance for MANY reasons, but it may finally be drawing to a close. I'll know in a week. 3 bedroom condo w/garage - all appliances ( save microwave) closing costs and lease buyout. I'm not getting a steal, but I think if i'm going to jump in, now's the time. Besides with kiddo being settled and all that who-ha with his dad, I figure I'm going to be here for a while anyway.
Christmas - Again, after some MAJOR tap dancing ( my feet are really tired) I was able to get back to MD w/little C for under $500. This means, I get to be in MD for a few days, which is good as I really need a little time away from the insanity here. It's only 5 days, but I think that's the perfect amount... not too short, but not too long either.
Little C - He's kicking butt in third grade. He's a little know it all that does his homework at mock10 and then makes careless errors. He's got a best friend now and they are very good together. We have discovered what forgery is and learned that it is bad. It's been a good school year for his thus far and that is a VERY good thing :-)
There you have it. With all these things going on there hasn't been much time or energy for ruminating on the greater things in life. It's mere survival mode for now, and that's ok, just tiring.
If not before, I'll check in around February :-)
Happy Holidays everyone!!!!!!
School - Crazy fall bad season. A total of 5 performances ( with four different programs) in 4 months ( this is for high schoolers mind you). And the grand debate of "march or not to march". I'm not sure who I was trying to kill, the kids or me.
Musical - Yup, did that too, but my role in that was much less this year than in past years. Easier show, lighter rehearsal schedule. We performed "The Music Man" . During the run, there was conflict with the kids, conflict with the new theater director, conflict with the accompanists - good thing was not much if any of this drama involved me personally - I just was the vent lady. I guess that's why they call in "drama"
Playing - Still doing the chamber orchestra 2 concerts this fall ( love that group) and the Pueblo symphony.... although for the fall season I was able to make 1 of the 4 concerts due to school and other conflicts. Hmmm. I'm hoping I still have that gig in the spring.
Divorce - Fine'. All went well.... relatively. The first time round we agreed to do it ourselves ( the legal part). Didn't go so good. So, he hired a mediator for the 2 of us which was actually a lawyer for him. It's a bad sign when the judge says, "Are you _sure_ you want to proceed without your own legal counsel?" So, I'm certainly not going to write a book entitiled, "Take him for all he's worth" but I also won't be writing one called "+15000 in settlement, -20000 in legal fees" The short of it, I got screwed a little. But, he's dating now - a woman with 2 kids of her own. They met via eHarmony. I'm just hoping he put there what he told me- "Question - Expectations for a spousal relationship. Answer - A hot meal on the table and sex 2x a week." Maybe she likes that description. Anyway, in the depths of my mind, I hope they marry and then she divorces him and takes him for all he's worth. Then, I'd just live vicariously. Yeah, I'm a little bitter, but this too shall pass.
Home ownership - Well, it's looks as if I might be a homeowner soon. It's been a tap dance for MANY reasons, but it may finally be drawing to a close. I'll know in a week. 3 bedroom condo w/garage - all appliances ( save microwave) closing costs and lease buyout. I'm not getting a steal, but I think if i'm going to jump in, now's the time. Besides with kiddo being settled and all that who-ha with his dad, I figure I'm going to be here for a while anyway.
Christmas - Again, after some MAJOR tap dancing ( my feet are really tired) I was able to get back to MD w/little C for under $500. This means, I get to be in MD for a few days, which is good as I really need a little time away from the insanity here. It's only 5 days, but I think that's the perfect amount... not too short, but not too long either.
Little C - He's kicking butt in third grade. He's a little know it all that does his homework at mock10 and then makes careless errors. He's got a best friend now and they are very good together. We have discovered what forgery is and learned that it is bad. It's been a good school year for his thus far and that is a VERY good thing :-)
There you have it. With all these things going on there hasn't been much time or energy for ruminating on the greater things in life. It's mere survival mode for now, and that's ok, just tiring.
If not before, I'll check in around February :-)
Happy Holidays everyone!!!!!!
Tuesday, September 30, 2008
Sour notes
So tonight I say, " You've worked your......... fanny's off. It's now time to show it."
Ughh. May assistant clarifies, "Show your work, not your fannies"
Not any better.
It was a long night..........
Ughh. May assistant clarifies, "Show your work, not your fannies"
Not any better.
It was a long night..........
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Robbed
Well, I knew it happened. I just didn't think it'd happen here to me.
Yesterday we found out that my bike, my five year old kinda expensive bicycle had been stolen. Now, a night and police report later, we'll see what happens next.
What will cost more? replacing the bike OR filing the insurance claim and watching the renter insurance go up?? Hmmm.
Damn this war.
Yesterday we found out that my bike, my five year old kinda expensive bicycle had been stolen. Now, a night and police report later, we'll see what happens next.
What will cost more? replacing the bike OR filing the insurance claim and watching the renter insurance go up?? Hmmm.
Damn this war.
Monday, September 22, 2008
Misconstrued
Hey fellow bloggers,
Ever wonder who reads your words on these things? Do you ever wonder that someone reading them may totally misconstrue what you have said or make incorrect assumptions? I am guessing these are the times you choose words carefully, content vs context.
Just wondering.
Ever wonder who reads your words on these things? Do you ever wonder that someone reading them may totally misconstrue what you have said or make incorrect assumptions? I am guessing these are the times you choose words carefully, content vs context.
Just wondering.
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
Modified quote
"It's not what we do that defines us. It is how we get up after we have fallen that truly shows who we are" - from movie "Maid in Manhattan"
Sunday, September 14, 2008
Behavior Modification
What do you think? It is said that if you want someone to act differently to or with you, you have to enact change on your end first. Well, have you ever felt that you try to act differently yet around someone you know, yet their persistent behavior facilitates you returning to the prior behavior?
My thought here - the beauty in moving away from somewhere you are known is that you have a clean slate. Have you ever felt that after you have been classified or pigeon-holed that you can't change the way people act around you?
Not a current problem, just a thought. A convoluted, ambiguous thought :-)
My thought here - the beauty in moving away from somewhere you are known is that you have a clean slate. Have you ever felt that after you have been classified or pigeon-holed that you can't change the way people act around you?
Not a current problem, just a thought. A convoluted, ambiguous thought :-)
Saturday, September 13, 2008
Themes
Last night, As I got ready for bed, I realized that I did not have my cell phone. this normally would be a status that would drive me to stress, as the phone is also my alarm, but as I didn't have any pressing appointment to wake up for, I just figured that I 'sort of' remember where it might be, it's not in any danger, and I'll get it at my convenience. Not only that but, some of the information it contains which I once thought was very important to me is not as viable as it once was and, as far as I know, it might no longer be accurate.As for the rest, I can reacquire it if I deem necessary.
In fact, not having the cell phone has been both slightly distressing but also liberating. I think I know where it is, so I can get it when I want it. The beauty is that it doesn't have a say when I decide that I do need it. All it can do is decide to no longer work.
I think that is a theme. Sometimes when you loose something it can be kind of liberating. You explore life without it and feel that you can do it, it's not as bad as you might have thought, and maybe, if you have to or want to, you can replace it with something better. Alas, if you've lived with something for a period of time, you become comfortable with the knowledge that it's there, comfortable with the benefits and inconveniences that it brings with it, and when it's gone, you feel the absence of it.
I guess that's the challenge. When is life better? With or without it?
Note: I still haven't retrieved the cell phone. But I have purchased several pairs of shoes :-)
In fact, not having the cell phone has been both slightly distressing but also liberating. I think I know where it is, so I can get it when I want it. The beauty is that it doesn't have a say when I decide that I do need it. All it can do is decide to no longer work.
I think that is a theme. Sometimes when you loose something it can be kind of liberating. You explore life without it and feel that you can do it, it's not as bad as you might have thought, and maybe, if you have to or want to, you can replace it with something better. Alas, if you've lived with something for a period of time, you become comfortable with the knowledge that it's there, comfortable with the benefits and inconveniences that it brings with it, and when it's gone, you feel the absence of it.
I guess that's the challenge. When is life better? With or without it?
Note: I still haven't retrieved the cell phone. But I have purchased several pairs of shoes :-)
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
State of affairs
It might be considered a sad state of affairs when the stove clock pings 10:40 and you think it might have been a bad idea to watch a movie and stay up an hour past your bedtime.
Maybe not sad, but definitely different.
This from the girl in CO who prides herself on being raised "east coast". I guess I'm just all about different states. ;-)
Enough said. I am dead. Time for bed.
Maybe not sad, but definitely different.
This from the girl in CO who prides herself on being raised "east coast". I guess I'm just all about different states. ;-)
Enough said. I am dead. Time for bed.
Saturday, August 30, 2008
Quote
" I know that i may look rather like a rhynocerous, but I've got quite a thin skin really."
- Bennie from the movie Circle of Friends
- Bennie from the movie Circle of Friends
Friday, August 29, 2008
A quick hurrah
Beethoven 7 is on the playlist for the one ensemble I play in. Yippee !!!! and crap ;-). Better start practicing again.
Quotes and ideas
#1 - Fail to plan, plan to fail. ( don't know originator)
Missed part - Plan to pass out from exhaustion when attempting to plan well. Examp - 4 50 min classes = 200 min instruction. 50 min class = 120 minute plan ( plan, copy, grade, plan). 200 teaching time = 480 min planning time. 8 hour a day job my ass.
#2 - The early bird gets the worm, but the late mouse gets the cheese. :-)
#3 - The secret to happiness is a Good Sense of Humor and a Bad Memory.
Missed part - Plan to pass out from exhaustion when attempting to plan well. Examp - 4 50 min classes = 200 min instruction. 50 min class = 120 minute plan ( plan, copy, grade, plan). 200 teaching time = 480 min planning time. 8 hour a day job my ass.
#2 - The early bird gets the worm, but the late mouse gets the cheese. :-)
#3 - The secret to happiness is a Good Sense of Humor and a Bad Memory.
Friday, August 22, 2008
Hotness
Quick funny story....
A few night's back, kiddo couldn't sleep. After many attempts at getting to sleep, he asked if he could sleep in my bed. Because I wanted to get to sleep, I reluctantly conceeded. After about 2.5 hours of loaning the right hand side of the bed, I could no longer sleep because I was sweating so bad. The little guy is like a four foot five hot water bottle. I aborted and went to finish the night in the bottom bunk of his bed.
He asked me the next morning where I had went. I told him I went to sleep in his bed because he was so warm that he was making me too hot to stay there.
He says," Yeah. I'm a hot sorta guy. My hotness moves around and can be too much for people." Before cracking up I said, "Really? Must be tough being hot" He didn't get my laughter.
So guys, take it from an 8 year old. Try to control your "hotness" :-)
A few night's back, kiddo couldn't sleep. After many attempts at getting to sleep, he asked if he could sleep in my bed. Because I wanted to get to sleep, I reluctantly conceeded. After about 2.5 hours of loaning the right hand side of the bed, I could no longer sleep because I was sweating so bad. The little guy is like a four foot five hot water bottle. I aborted and went to finish the night in the bottom bunk of his bed.
He asked me the next morning where I had went. I told him I went to sleep in his bed because he was so warm that he was making me too hot to stay there.
He says," Yeah. I'm a hot sorta guy. My hotness moves around and can be too much for people." Before cracking up I said, "Really? Must be tough being hot" He didn't get my laughter.
So guys, take it from an 8 year old. Try to control your "hotness" :-)
Saturday, August 16, 2008
So, this one time, at band camp.......
Enough said. :-)
To be anticipated: a reason to scream out "MAN DOWN!!!!!!" All in due time, all in due time.
To be anticipated: a reason to scream out "MAN DOWN!!!!!!" All in due time, all in due time.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
What's doing
Went to very beautiful house wedding - actually played for wedding, but whole thing was very nice
Trying to finish painting office and reassemble before almightly band camp.
Sent majors to do drum camp with the great George Parks. Excited to hear about their experience w/ that.
Missed a trip to Rome :-(
All the laundry, vacuuming, cleaning, and dusting you can imagine before little C returns.
Battling with this whole drill thing. This may be the last year I write it... which may be a great thing for the kids :-)
Heading to NH in a few days.
Now there's excitement. There's more to share ( not much) but it takes too long to edit. :-)
Trying to finish painting office and reassemble before almightly band camp.
Sent majors to do drum camp with the great George Parks. Excited to hear about their experience w/ that.
Missed a trip to Rome :-(
All the laundry, vacuuming, cleaning, and dusting you can imagine before little C returns.
Battling with this whole drill thing. This may be the last year I write it... which may be a great thing for the kids :-)
Heading to NH in a few days.
Now there's excitement. There's more to share ( not much) but it takes too long to edit. :-)
Sunday, July 27, 2008
Man cannot live on bread alone
But on milk and instant oatmeal..... maybe. W/ a little HBO on the side :-)
Monday, July 21, 2008
Pics of trip through CO
I joined Bev and a few of her friends hailing from MD and TX to see CO. Great people and a great time. I joined their "little" adventure - little = 800 miles in 2 days.
Day 1 Whitewater rafting which was amazing. Day 2 - Rocky Mountain State Park via Golden then to Leadville. Leadville, where we partied at a bar built in 1872... or something like that. Met many new friends... whose pics must be on another camera ( Bev, did we get copies of Tambo's camera???) 4 Brits - Paul, Paul, Collin, and Woody, who we played shuffleboard with and some other folks. Crazy night.
RAFTING:
Rocky Mountain National park and some views along the way:
Leadville and the bar "The Silver Dollar":
Day 1 Whitewater rafting which was amazing. Day 2 - Rocky Mountain State Park via Golden then to Leadville. Leadville, where we partied at a bar built in 1872... or something like that. Met many new friends... whose pics must be on another camera ( Bev, did we get copies of Tambo's camera???) 4 Brits - Paul, Paul, Collin, and Woody, who we played shuffleboard with and some other folks. Crazy night.
RAFTING:
Rocky Mountain National park and some views along the way:
Leadville and the bar "The Silver Dollar":
H20 rafting
Made it :-) Loved it !!!! Will do again.
Grade 3-4 rapids on the Arkansas. Yee-ha. ( Actually, more like, Holy S#$t)
Pics to come soon.
Grade 3-4 rapids on the Arkansas. Yee-ha. ( Actually, more like, Holy S#$t)
Pics to come soon.
Saturday, July 19, 2008
Adventure - white water rafting
No story, just FYI. Hope to have some cool pictures afterwards though.
The last time I did this I almost drown. Hmmm. But, "you should try to do something that scares you everyday." - can't remember reference.
Batter's up.
The last time I did this I almost drown. Hmmm. But, "you should try to do something that scares you everyday." - can't remember reference.
Batter's up.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
More pictures
Badlands, more driving scenery, and a place called Bear Country USA. Pretty fascinating... and cute.
Trip and Goodbyes
Hello all,
The trip to Mt. Rushmore was very cool. It was seeing what I had always thought Colorado was when I first visited. I am going to add many photos of Mt. Rushmore, a place called Wall Drug and the Badlands, as well as photos taken on the trip.
The goodbyes come as today, I think I will begin journaling a little more privately. I have my reasons, and, for the first time, don't feel inclined to share. I'm going to try and learn to appreciate the more reticent nature :-).
I may use this more for random pictures and quotes.... and perhaps a funny story or 2 as I run into them. Time to figure out some things and reconstruct others. I have to attempt to put myself together a little more before I go back to trying to help adolescents figure out their stuff. At least, that's the idea :-)
To all who look, here's hoping for big life and great adventures, as well as the best of luck with whatever, where-ever, and who ever your endeavours lead you :-).
Saturday, July 12, 2008
Heading to South Dakota
Well, it's not out of the country, but it's out o'state. A place to start at least. Sis and I are headed to see Mt. Rushmore and the Badlands. I 'm anxious to see the badlands as, well their name implies bad things. I am hoping this is just for comparison purposes. I can be a bad-ass in the Bad-lands. He,he,he.( come on... you know that was funny) Better bad than big...
Pictures to come. Wish for safe driving.:-)
Another note it was a beautiful day here in CO. I wore shorts and was chilly.... IN JULY!!!! That and the sunset as seen in Castle Rock was so pretty. Not a cloud in the sky. I kicked myself for not having my camera in my purse. When I question whether I should ever leave this place, nights like this make a compelling argument to stay. A very compelling argument. For those who have never been, I'll try to get pics of that too.
Lastly,the office is coming along alright.... thanks to my friend Carol. She is a great motivator. Anyway, over the last 3 days we have caught ...(gulp) SIX MICE!!!! Gross. They love peanut butter and chocolate. I share that like with them, sadly. I actually saw one in the trap today. The custodians had gotten the previous ones. My reaction when finding "corpus o' mickey" was not gracefull. Nope. It went more like. "EWWWW!!! OMG!!!! DEAD!!!! EWWWW!!! ICK!!!!! DEAD!!!" Luckily, Carol, being a little older and braver than myself, was able to remove dead rodent and kindly laugh at my spastic reaction. I could have emptied it, as soon as I obtained a face mask and rubber gloves..... I think.
Thinking of rural places, there's a place out here called Black Forest, which, as time passes, I become more and more enamored with. Lots of land, trees, and privacy - which I am growing to appreciate. As much as I like the country, if I have to encounter mice and snakes on a regular basis, maybe not. Then again, the cockroaches of extraordinary size might scare me away from the big cities too. I am damned to suburbia :-).
Nah. I take that back. I could handle the sitation. I'd have cats, ferrets, and raid on holster. I could make it........
Pictures to come. Wish for safe driving.:-)
Another note it was a beautiful day here in CO. I wore shorts and was chilly.... IN JULY!!!! That and the sunset as seen in Castle Rock was so pretty. Not a cloud in the sky. I kicked myself for not having my camera in my purse. When I question whether I should ever leave this place, nights like this make a compelling argument to stay. A very compelling argument. For those who have never been, I'll try to get pics of that too.
Lastly,the office is coming along alright.... thanks to my friend Carol. She is a great motivator. Anyway, over the last 3 days we have caught ...(gulp) SIX MICE!!!! Gross. They love peanut butter and chocolate. I share that like with them, sadly. I actually saw one in the trap today. The custodians had gotten the previous ones. My reaction when finding "corpus o' mickey" was not gracefull. Nope. It went more like. "EWWWW!!! OMG!!!! DEAD!!!! EWWWW!!! ICK!!!!! DEAD!!!" Luckily, Carol, being a little older and braver than myself, was able to remove dead rodent and kindly laugh at my spastic reaction. I could have emptied it, as soon as I obtained a face mask and rubber gloves..... I think.
Thinking of rural places, there's a place out here called Black Forest, which, as time passes, I become more and more enamored with. Lots of land, trees, and privacy - which I am growing to appreciate. As much as I like the country, if I have to encounter mice and snakes on a regular basis, maybe not. Then again, the cockroaches of extraordinary size might scare me away from the big cities too. I am damned to suburbia :-).
Nah. I take that back. I could handle the sitation. I'd have cats, ferrets, and raid on holster. I could make it........
Friday, July 11, 2008
Happy Place :-)
My little boy called me ( that's right. HE called ME :-) ) Twice today. I am usually the caller, but this time he called me and it makes me smile. But it gets better. He said the sweetest thing. He said, " I can't wait till you come up here. Next year, you should be here for as long as I am here." Awhhh.
I can't be there as long as he is. In fact, I need to give my ex-laws huge kudos as it is their generosity that allows me to go there this year. That story goes... C's grandfather normally flies little C back to Denver ( accompanying him on the flight) checks on their house here and then takes a return flight back to NH. This year, they offered to send me to NH, spend a few days there so that I can see all the things that Christian tells me about. ( you know, the impoverished vacation with a speed boat and tubing, kayaking, paddleboating, bongo jumping, Sea-dooing, swimming, etc. What we all did with our grandparents for 4 weeks. (note a little sarcasm... but happiness that he has all that)) Then, my little guy will return back to CO with me.
But, I miss my little guy and have been keeping busy in order not to think about that he's missing. Just a few weeks and I get to see him again. But today, I got the hint he missed me too. I don't want him to be sad, but it's a great thing to know that you are loved.
Here are some more pics from vacation:
I can't be there as long as he is. In fact, I need to give my ex-laws huge kudos as it is their generosity that allows me to go there this year. That story goes... C's grandfather normally flies little C back to Denver ( accompanying him on the flight) checks on their house here and then takes a return flight back to NH. This year, they offered to send me to NH, spend a few days there so that I can see all the things that Christian tells me about. ( you know, the impoverished vacation with a speed boat and tubing, kayaking, paddleboating, bongo jumping, Sea-dooing, swimming, etc. What we all did with our grandparents for 4 weeks. (note a little sarcasm... but happiness that he has all that)) Then, my little guy will return back to CO with me.
But, I miss my little guy and have been keeping busy in order not to think about that he's missing. Just a few weeks and I get to see him again. But today, I got the hint he missed me too. I don't want him to be sad, but it's a great thing to know that you are loved.
Here are some more pics from vacation:
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