Ho hum

I am simply writing because I am at a loss of other things to do. Sleep would be the wisest course of action, but have you ever felt sleepy yet not wanted to sleep? Well this is where I am currently. I know there are things I could be doing but none of them seeming important enough to actually do them. Instead I play computer card games that seem to make my computer awfully slow and make the spinning wheel of color and frustration appear. Grrrrr.

What is going on? Life as it has days before and as it most likely will days following. We are reaching the end of the school year and it can't come fast enough for me. This year had been full of educational woes that seem to have a doppler effect that continues forever. And then, last week, a fellow teacher and acquaintance of mine had just been arrested for child porn. Great. :-( I really like/ liked the person too, so I don't really know what to think about all that. I hope that it is all a mistake or that they were set up, but I also see that such a thing is probably not the reality of the situation. Just goes to show, sometimes you can't believe the media and sometimes you learn how much you DON'T know about someone.

That, and one of the students who graduated "last year" is engaged. Engaged!! Ok, I see that my view of the matrimonial state may be a little skewed at this very moment in time, but, not even a year out of high school and off to the alter? Really? How much life can you have under your belt? I can't imagine going through my undergrad, not even in my twenties, and being married? Uh, no. Is this just the cynic in me? Thinking it can't work? Thinking who they have/haven't met? Thinking, how well can someone know themself at 19? This just seems so foreign to me and in turn, maybe unwise? Who knows? I wish them well, and if they make it for the long haul, maybe there's a lesson to be learned, but damn if I know what it is now.

Other than that, probably not a whole lot to say. At the moment, I am living the life of a psuedo-slacker. It's not overly rewarding, so I'll be happy when the momentum changes at the end of the year.

One more personal performance to go and 3 more school ones. Eh, could be worse I guess. It's hard to motivate others when your simply trying to motivate yourself. Ever been there?

Ok. 11pm here with a 5:30 wake up right around the corner. :-( Funny, I'm not too worried about the struggle to fall asleep, rather the one that's to be fought at the sound of the bell.... or buzz as the case may be.

Oh, well. Off to round one.