One of my favorite films is "Shawshank Redemption". I have liked it from first viewing, but, in the last 5+ years, I find it more philosophical. That quote by Andy, " Get busy living or get busy dying" rang hard in my ears as I made arrangements for an impromptu trip. That, and a line from one that was something in regards to "I don't rely on others" It was a little more innocuous than that, but the idea was to not rely on others to do things.
Though I totally prefer doing things with others ( traveling/ eating/etc) I guess the bigger deal is that I need to learn to enjoy things... just me. Yeah, I'll still want to talk about them with people, but the act of doing is all me.
When I was mentioning this trip, it was plan A of plans A, B and C. It's currently spring break. That alone, normally means restorative sleep. Granted, that too would have been nice but, from Jan through early March, it feels like I have been sick - warn down, to actually sick. That and, on a festival day, I'm under the weather and get slammed in the head by a cross bar of a bus door. Meh, now I have a scapegoat for congnitive lackings ;-)
So, I wanted to have an adventure. I was waiting for some sign that this was the "right" call. I don't know that "that" specifically happened, but my nayayers were less in number than supporters, and, the fiscal impact isn't insurmoutable. That was enough for me.
Let's face it, I don't know if or when I can make this trip again. I don't know if my job will exist in a year. I don't know if my health or anything else would not allow this to be possible. So. there it is. I chose to live.
Gotta head to bed. Early morning activities tomorrow.
Let's see how I feel when it's over :-)
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