#1 - I'd really like some snow as I have attended school related events ceaselessly since school began. Come on !!! One of the perks of teaching are snow days!!!!
#2 - In the past 3-4 days, I have received so many touching statements from former students and parents of former students saying how my teaching or being a part of my class has influenced them. I cannot tell you the meaning of these little emails or Facebook messages. They mean the world to me and inspire me more than money. Honestly. Although more money would be an awesome thing, knowing that what I do actually matters to someone is awesome - in every meaning of the word. And who said words were powerless??
#3 - There's a situation "brewing" and I'm not quite sure how to play it.Ok, that terminology is a bit crass, but there is untraveled territory to be seen and I am actually nervous about how to .... navigate it. There... is that better?
So this past weekend was another "band" thing. Shocker. Anyway, this one involved JH band directors and students, not my usual high school clan. Now in order to offer any sort of understanding, let me provide a wee bit of history.
When I first moved out here to the Springs, the school music program had next to nothing - not many instruments and not much of a library to speak of. So,I went around and introduced myself at some of the school district meetings and met my fellow band compadres. There were these 2 gentleman at a JH called..... well let's leave that out. Never know who reads this stuff. Anyway, they were like the dynamic duo, super friendly, super talented and had a kick butt junior high (JH) band program. They were both easy on the eyes, but one was married and at the time, the status of the other was undetermined. (I was married anyway at the time, so all that is really meaningless anyway).
2 or 3 years ago this dynamic duo broke up ( seriously, it was like a divorce in the band world) because one wanted to teach at the school where his kids would attend ( other end of the district) The guy who stayed got an assistant/co director with which he is less than enthusiast about. We have something in common there.
Well, last month, my assistant over paid this director for this JH honor band. The receiving director emailed us both about the overpayment and asked how we'd like that handled. The assistant answered very correctly. I hate dry emails as I receive over 100 work related emails daily ( no joke) so I responded something like we'd hunt him down if we didn't get that money back. He replied playfully, and we joked a little bit more. All innocuous fun. Then I saw him at a conference where we had a really good work related conversation - that was really great. I saw him again there and he introduced me to his son. Then at this honor band thing, all was good, but weird. Do you know the "weird" I am referring to? It's that feeling when you think someone likes you ( "likes you" likes you) or when you might think you might like them, but you don't want to send wrong signals and make things more weird or simply scare them off or you don't want to seem to eager or something, so your interactions are almost stifled, weird. Well, that was this weekend. He's fun to hang out with in the group. He's a somewhat willing participant but not an initiator. You kinda need to create the topic of conversation before he'll engage in it. ( sound familiar?)
We have exchanged a little Facebook messaging and I now have the phone numbers. Well, over the last 7 years or so, my phone skills have deteriorated greatly. I don't cold call anymore unless I am pissed and need something done or fixed. But I don't think that's the bigger concern here.
He's older than me. Now I have always sought older men because of the generality that they are more mature and the whole "leader" conceptual thing. But when I thought older, I thought 1-5 years. Well, he's in his mid forties. With 2 teenagers. How would this work?? And he's a colleague. What if things went unpleasantly?? What would that do??
But he seems like a really nice guy and the dating pool hasn't been overflowing with overly viable options. I just don't know.
I kinda would like to get to know him on a level other than colleague, but geesh, I don't even really remember how to date past date #1. And such an older fella? How do you know if there are expectations or a timeline or something?? And what if it did work?? I don't know.
So this is the latest consternation. If you have thoughts or ideas, please comment. Otherwise, wait for more of the tale of 2 band directors. Worst case, I'm making a mountain out of a molehill ( another specialty of mine ).
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